sudden moments of realization hits me now and then. i realized, just now, that i will never be a part of anything. i'm too scared. too scared to be honest and vulnerable. i'll always be alone i think
i sometimes picture myself as a little girl sitting in her window, watching the world go by, and watching other little girls being themselves together and living. sometimes it starts hurting, but i won't let it. i've come to terms with the fact that this really is something i have chosen. i know that no one will ever really understand who i am, so i hide instead. no one has to really know me
reading what i wrote before i met you, i realize how much my life has changed since then. you have given me a world to belong in, and i don't know how i can ever thank you enough for that.
quote on the title by pablo neruda