but I love your feet only because they walked upon the earth and upon the wind and upon the waters, until they found me

sudden moments of realization hits me now and then. i realized, just now, that i will never be a part of anything. i'm too scared. too scared to be honest and vulnerable. i'll always be alone i think

i sometimes picture myself as a little girl sitting in her window, watching the world go by, and watching other little girls being themselves together and living. sometimes it starts hurting, but i won't let it. i've come to terms with the fact that this really is something i have chosen. i know that no one will ever really understand who i am, so i hide instead. no one has to really know me 

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reading what i wrote before i met you, i realize how much my life has changed since then. you have given me a world to belong in, and i don't know how i can ever thank you enough for that.  

 

quote on the title by pablo neruda